So, how does it work when you finally realize that you are lonely and have actually made the decision to begin dating again? Why do we always want what we can't have? Apparently, its some genetic disease, or maybe it's my intuition trying to tell me that I'm not really ready yet. See, I have a crush on someone that I can not possibly have because he is married. I guess I developed this because its safe in my eyes. I won't EVER make a move because of his status which means that I will NEVER have to be rejected and I can admire from afar. I feel safe this way, or maybe that is apart of my backwards thinking. :)
I also realized that someone I used to date years ago is no where near the same person that he once was. I thought for a little bit that he might be the one that I was supposed to be with, then as the months went on (as friends) and the more I spoke to him I realized that he is not a very happy person and likes to complain about a lot. Hearing constant complaining, is totally not my thing. Why are guys so much like children? Can't they grow up and act like an adult for a little bit? Maybe its too hard for them.
Work is going well and the crews are beginning to come on. Things are moving pretty slowly though. We have 6 parks to open up in 11 days and the water is not on anywhere, most of our supplies are not in, pipes are broken everywhere, and there are only 5 people to do it all in this very short amount of time. If it wasn't like this, then it wouldn't be California State Parks. We are just very good at pulling it all together. Got to work in the wind and rain today...groovy.
I also realized that someone I used to date years ago is no where near the same person that he once was. I thought for a little bit that he might be the one that I was supposed to be with, then as the months went on (as friends) and the more I spoke to him I realized that he is not a very happy person and likes to complain about a lot. Hearing constant complaining, is totally not my thing. Why are guys so much like children? Can't they grow up and act like an adult for a little bit? Maybe its too hard for them.
Work is going well and the crews are beginning to come on. Things are moving pretty slowly though. We have 6 parks to open up in 11 days and the water is not on anywhere, most of our supplies are not in, pipes are broken everywhere, and there are only 5 people to do it all in this very short amount of time. If it wasn't like this, then it wouldn't be California State Parks. We are just very good at pulling it all together. Got to work in the wind and rain today...groovy.
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