A Drift in the Shallow Harbor of Patience

Nothing really bothering me today. I went to work and before I did ANYTHING I asked. I skipped my break that I am required by law to take as still didn't get it all finished. So the rest of the list that I made myself, that I have to do at work, was almost finished before It was time to go home. I will continue this list tomorrow on top of whatever else they decided to shovel onto me. I would really like for them to find something wrong with anything that I did today! They probably will, that's just how they are.

I'm not all that worried about things today. I am feeling much better than the previous days. It really helped that I was given a completely unexpected ego boost from an unlikely source. Friends can be the light that you need to guide you back onto the path that you inadvertently wandered off of, so you are taken back to the safety of familiar territory. I love my friends!

I have to say that being under as much stress as I have been over the last few days, has helped me focus extra hard on my homework. I have gotten more accomplished since Wednesday that I think I have in a few previous classes. Somewhere along the line I began to care about it again. This is very good news to myself!

I cut my finger today after the knife decided that an impromptu change of venue was the right and proper thing to do. Remember, no matter what anyone tries tells you, inanimate objects DO have thoughts and generally they are focused on how they can get back at you for thier over useage.

The Need to Write for No Real Reason

Not really sure why I have chosen to come on here and write again, nothing new has changed or developed. I have calmed down a bit for my previous posting. I guess what they say is true, the passage of time helps things seem not so bad. Then again, it was said best by Ally McBeal: Today is going to be a not so bad day. Our day is what we make of it. Why is it that simple, yet putting it into action is so tough? Why does motivation elude so many of us and it seems hopeless to try to change it. Where do all these people with all of this insane motivation get it from?

I was yelled at by my boss the other day and I realize that everything she said was true, but I couldn't help but be upset with her? Why is it that when we get caught doing/not doing the things that we need to be, we get upset with the person who caught us instead of ourselves? We are the issue and we know it, so why be pissed off at the other person? For catching you? Calling you out on it? Doing their job by talking to you about it? Really, the person that we should be upset with is ourselves, and you know what the kicker is? I left the meeting and thought...I need a new job! Lol REALLY??? No, I don't need a new job, I just need to do mine. I need to be more prepared for the things that I need to get done. Then again, she really did not need to talk to me the way that she was either. Her communication skills (<----- This weeks discussion topic!) are seriously lacking.

However, the other things that are being worked out are going very slowly. Most of it, as with other people no days, has to do with money or lack there of. I owe so much money to other people for helping me out when I really need it. Seems to me like I am ALWAYS needing it. I know this all comes in a time when everyone else is sitting in the same boat and we are all trying our best not to capsize it.

I guess this is it for now, I may come back later with something else to rant about.
P.S. Saw a sign in a Doctors office yesterday that read:

Unattended Children
will be given an Espresso
and a Free Puppy!

Stress and Various Other Issues of the Internally Damaged

Ok, so this is my first blog and though it is not my first time ever posting a blog, it is my first time creating a journal of sorts for people who are actually going to look at it.

I find it kind of hard to think of things to write about while the sound of Shrek the Halls is ringing through my ears. The life of a 3 year old must be so simple. I know that it is way more simple than my own at this point. I only wish that all of the stress that I have resting on me would soon dissolve into nothing more than a pebble in my shoe. I need to change so many things and I know that I take it all on and try to resolve it all at once (which is impossible). I have to be patient and not become discouraged because it is taking time to resolve the issues that are happening at this point in time.

People say that having a cat is very relaxing and a great stress reducer because of the petting action. I can't say if this is true or not. All my cats seem to be interested in is walking all over my computer while it's in use and sticking their butts in my face. They seem to have it just as easy as my 3 year old.

Wow, here I was thinking that I couldn't think of anything to write and there it all is, in plain view, that I have more on my mind than I thought. Maybe this will be good therapy for me.

Everyone, please place your seat and tray tables to their full up right position, We are in for a very bumpy ride!